Joy or Pleasure

True growth of the spirit is
when you have no one else to turn to
Nothing else to hide behind
No more excuses to give
It is then when my true being comes into existence
or acknowledge

This is the time when true understanding is felt
Not taught
Understanding is not of the mind
It is of the heart
O the spirit of who I am. Who if, it is my choice to become
Everyone live in fear
In conditioning of who and what we should be
And we become what the world want us to be
And what is that? Confusion, Pain, Misdirected energy
and more importantly death
Death of the spirit. Death of our innocence
Death to who we felt we were and wanted to be
Is it the world fault?
Or is it we are without knowledge, without guidance
Without the the true understanding of being from people who knows

It is a battle
A battle with the world we live in
A world we do not know. A world that lead us to where we are
Yet we are guided by the spirit
The spirit knows only joy
The spirit craves for joy
In our limited world we live what we think joy constitute
We live in the pleasure of the tongue
we live in the pleasure of the touch
we live in the pleasure of the sight
we live in the pleasure of the smell
we live in the pleasure of the mind
but the pleasure of the spirit is stifled
We give only in hope we get
And yet that bring us to where we are
Lifeless. Joyless. Spiritless.

This is good
This is where true living begins
This is where true search begins
The beginning of being who we are
And not what the world want us to be

It is a tremendous feeling
Not one that the world believe in
Not one that the world would understand
Because the world can be a bottomless pit
We keep digging deeper in the hope that our pain will be relieve
Our loneliness will be fulfilled
We keep the appearance and we numb ourselves

Anesthesia
It is a wonderful drug
It keep us sane, it keep us from growing
It is the path of least resistance as the least pain is felt
Where no effort is needed

This we are reduce to
The science of modern living, the quick fix
We live in a world where the joy of strive is not recommended
We live in the world of instant noodle
Two minutes and your appetite will be satiated
There is no nourishment in that
It is only the satiation of appetite
Not he spirit
The spirit is not important
Only what I appear to be
To be accepted is more important than
who I really am
Who I can be
What I am made of

I live in a world of who I can be is much more important than who I am
A world where who I am is not important
Just a place where I can belong
where I can be a slave to

it does not matter where others are lost
It begins with me
more importantly my spirit is not lost
This is resurrection, this is what it means
We are not dead, the old ways are dead
The spirit is now resurrected, this is the way of Christ
this is what is meant by resurrection
Not the body but the spirit

The time is now right
The journey is just beginning.
And the real time starts in 2010
When the world start coming to its senses
or will it just be a phase that we go through
Time heals and the world soon forget
Including myself

The Idea of Living

The idea of living

living begins when I decide
who I am is more important that what I have
to live the life of what I thought I should be
who I should be
why I should be
and yet I am not fulfilled
I am not happy.
why?
cause I have not found myself
my inner being
who I am
who I want to be
and live as I believe

I live as the world thought I should be. I live as I was taught how to be
and yet I live as others live
a life of quiet desperation
loneliness
despair, pain, emptiness
why?
cos I am living as to who I should be not who I am
who then is the I?

the dreamer, the spirit, the wanting of joy, the wanting of being
just who I am
the little ripple in this ocean
the one with heart to say
this is who I am
this is who I want to be
and yet the whole world don't want us to be
we are to live as they live
cos it is the only way they know how
we live like crabs in a basket
pulling each other back into the basket

then how do I start living?
when there is no where else to go
when there is no one where else to turn to
except it is only me

it is now my choice
now it is who I choose to be
it is this moment that my life might be transformed

dare I make that choice
or am I just another puppet in the lives of others?

it is now I make the decision
it is now or never
have I got the courage?
do I decide I have got what it takes?
life goes in full circle and it is this point that I will return

A decision not made

is that a choice too hard to make?
is that a choice a pain too hard to bear?

this is what maketh a being
a who
a what

A hero

Make a choice

Do I dare live as I believe?

it is a call to live

Just Be It

An interesting thought today.

The shift of focus. Am and always being focusing on what I want to have. And that is an impending event. An impending event will always be an impending event.

Therefore the reason for one to be grateful. Gratefulness makes one focus on the now. What we have and who we are now.

It is 'To Be' that is more important than 'To Have'.

You cannot have what you want without being what you want. This is the key.

When I am being kind, focus, discipline, organise, all the 'have' is a given.

Now it is who I have to be before what my goals are can be achieved. Robert Kiyosaki had said this. He want to make a million dollars a day and he said it is not because he is greedy.
He is excited about it because it is who he has to become before that can happen.

Never fully appreciated the meaning of what he said till this thought came to my head.

Nike has has said it very well 'Just Do It'

Now I believe it is 'Just Be It'

The Secret To The Secret

Am so glad I went through a tough time after the dinner experience. Read previous blog. Spend the next few days agonizing. Became totally incapacitated. As usual my nature is always to find the solution.

Yes have been to many seminars. Learn under gurus the likes of Tony Robbins, Robert Kiyosaki...etc. Interesting enough one of my seminar buddy from Hong Kong told me that he was so inspired after the UPW. So fired up and when I saw him again during the next seminar he said he crashed landed after a week. He said no support from Tony Robbins seminar gang.

Tony said change can happened in an instant! I am going to tell you that it is rubbish. You can't change who you are. In fact there are so many things about you that is so precious why change you?

Change the picture you have in your head about you. But you are not a still. Your head have an ongoing story about you, about life, about your perception of others and of yourself. It is a movie. It is a story.

Don't change the story!!!! How can you forget you? Your experience?

REPLACE THAT STORY! CREATE A BRAND NEW STORY !

How?? Well they try to teach you that at seminars and after awhile most people go back to where they are.

And then came 'The Secret' movie. Wow it took me 3 months of continuous daily watching before I really got the gist of it. Remember the 'gay guy' who put on the earphones and do visualizing? Wow he must have a great gift to be able to visualize. Most of us don't!

And then there was the guy with the vision board and how he visualize daily. Yah great.... did that. But it still did not have an emotional impact on me.

Emotional impact is the greatest impetus. It moves mountains.

So what is the story??

VISUALISE WITH MUSIC. Replace your old movie with a new movie as to how you would like to see your life and live it.

Eh? What do I mean? I mean you can literally create a new movie and watch it. You don't even have to visualize it!

Err err lost?

Don't worry. Will let you in in my next letter.

KG

Frienship

Last night had two friends over for dinner. Cooked a five course dinner and we had a lively conversation about the food I had prepared and how to incorporate them into my cafe menu. We were long time friends. 25 years. Of course many old stories were retold and old personal issues were raise. Sensitivity was high. Many things were said.

I must have touch on a real sore point. Abruptly dinner ended as one of my friend stood up being very upset and said that it is time to leave and just walked out. That left me with a heavy heart.

The dinner was to bring our friendship to another level. Guess I have lost an old friend.

:(

The making of Crunchy Falafel

Falafel must be the tastiest fritters ever created. Everybody loves fried food if we were not told by doom sayers that they are not good for you. It is not the fried food that is not good for you and in my case it is not the fried yummy crunchy Falafel is not good for you, it is the oil!

Almost all commercial cooking oil has been treated with caustic soda to remove impurities and this is the killer. So find your good cooking oil and give your food a good crunch!

Have been making falafel from scratch daily for almost two year. I want to start a cafe and have falafel sandwich as my signature dish. Done lots of research and always get the comment that the premix is yuks! A friend of mine who flew to Perth Australia got so excited when she went to a Lebanese grocery store and saw falafel premix. She bought me a kilo. Bless her.

By then I have spend a year testing out making my own premix. So when she brought me the store bought ones I fried hers and mine for lunch with her family without telling which is mine.

The texture came out very different and of course the recipe and taste was different. The kids and gang crunched away the entire plate of my falafel goo gooing and ahh ahhing. The store bought ones were chewy and not crunchy. Falafel is always meant to be crunchy so how on earth did that product get in the store?

Hmm nice. That could be another biz that I can get into. Right now my focus is making my cafe come through. Still have lots of work to do. Can't just sell falafel and nothing else. I have to work out an entire menu but featuring falafel. And most importantly I want to create a lifestyle cafe based on falafel sandwich. Not a cheap eat joint. I think we have been doing disservice to falafel for a very long time. It is time to change that perception.

So now there is the concept to do. The menu to plan. The biz plan to. The money to raise. You will be so surprise to have the amount of people telling you what else you can do. So they send me on a round the world trip of going from one concept to another.

Learning to be an entrepreneur is a journey. I have a goal. That is to build a world wide franchise of lifestyle cafe where sensual food is served fresh. Yes it will be healthy eating that we share but that is not what we sell. We all enjoy food. We don't want to be constantly be bombarded with nutritional facts! I want a place where you can enjoy your food sensually without having to think about the content. That is our job.

Your is just have a good time and a wonderful meal without being bogged down with heavy food.

To all my Namale family I like to say a big Hi. After our wonderful stay together I know we are out there living our dreams. This blog is one way for us to keep in touch and to let you guys know what I am doing. Please leave your comments, ideas and most of all your encouragements.